Friday, 18 November 2011

It went something like this...

I was working last night in Company Bar in Manchester where I do my day to day work. I didn’t finish there till gone 3:30am, feeling rather horny and with nowhere else to go, I decided to visit the Basement sauna. Now before any of you turn your noses up, I happen to enjoy going to saunas and the alike, being an exhibitionist and all that it feels comfortable and natural to me. So before people tarnish me with the “sauna is sleazy” brush, please remember that everyone has their likes and dislikes and I personally wouldn’t slate someone for their likes.

Anyway, I arrived at the sauna and had to pay a rather extortionate amount to get in as my membership was apparently due. Got in, no one in the changing room. Great…an empty bloody sauna. As I walked around I found that people were there…hiding in dark rooms, committing all sorts of heinous acts to their fellow man…and I loved it. After walking round checking out what this Thursday night had to offer. I went to use the steam room, after no one really catching my eye.

I sat down, towel off, relaxing in the steam. Once my eyes had become accustomed to the haze, I made out a groups of at least 4 guys in the corner going at it like rabbits. I couldn’t see who they were, what they looked like, nothing. Curiosity got the better of me, plus the horny factor of the anonymity of it, so I went over and put my cock in the hand of the nearest guy…who’s reaction went something like this “Holy fuck! What the fuck is that?” Now I believe if you ask a stupid question you get a stupid answer…however I simply replied “my cock, what do you think it is” to which he said “thats massive, I can’t take that!” (in all honesty I wasn’t asking him to anyway…just a quick fumble).

I left quickly and went to shower. Unbeknownst to me, I was being watched.

I continued to wash my self down, and spied another guy start to use the shower next to me. This guys was a god! Muscles upon muscles, hairy chest, about 30-32 and a gorgeous tan. I didn’t think guys like this existed in Manchester, what a surprise it was to find him. Now he had seen me soft, which is already a sight to behold if you go off what other people say. So he instantly suggested going to a room together. Off we trot to a cubicle. Give it about 5 minutes and he comes reeling out the room with a face of pure horror, makes his excuses and quickly walks off. It seems his eyes were a lot bigger then his arse, once I got hard he recoiled in fear and said that my cock was “scary looking” and “too big”, he couldn’t even suck it.

Now I’m not girthy by no means, I just have a lot of length. It is an average thickness, but just long. I never thought a cock could create so much fuss and horror…its not even an ugly cock.

So this makes me ask this question, what do you consider to be the perfect cock? As I’ve had mine been described as the perfect cock for fucking due to the curve, it’s also been described as small, huge, scary, bent…you name it, my cock has been called it, haha

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

Getting fed up, yes it's a rant post but an important one, read if you're a performer or a producer of porn

I'm getting somewhat fed up recently, of a few different things really. But the main one is, being ignored.

I have been in porn now for over 5 years, in that time I have had some mediocre shoots, a couple of good ones and the rest are forgettable, or this is how it seems from the reaction I get from other gay porn stars and companies. I have seen people rise and quickly fall due to their self inflated egos getting in the way. I have also seen unlikely stars rise from insecurity and self doubt, and they have gone on to big things. Me, I've sort of stayed floating around in the middle, not really fitting into any category and neither gaining popularity or losing it.

Regarding being ignored, over the past 3 to 4 years of me doing porn, more and more porn studios have shunned me or completely ignored me, for what reason I don't know. I will not name names...yet, but it's getting to a point where even I don't realise what I've done wrong, if anything.

A prime example is this; I apply to a website, a website which I look at and think realistically, yes I am probably fitted to this website. I mean look at me, yes I am skinny and I don't have much muscle, but there are guys on this website who are similar build to me...great I stand a chance. Only either to be told, "sorry you're not right for the website" or simply ignored. This is rude, and at east have the balls to tell me the REAL reason why you don't want to use me.

For example, a certain new UK porn website who's main focus is "muscle jocks" (big clue there) told me, "I wasn't right for the site, as they wanted muscle jocks and guys like that", fine not a problem, but then why are you using a model who is skinnier than me who has a trouble getting hard on camera? In all fairness though that website is a bit of an ego trip for it's owner(s) so I'll let them have their fun.

One of the worst is a London based company that likes it's lads "hard" (another clue), told me the first time I applied (bear in mind I had worked for the guy who runs this company when he was a cameraman for another) that I didn't have the right body type, as I was to hairy and toned to be a twink, but beefy and muscled enough to be a stud/man/whatever you want to call it. I accepted this and started going to the gym, now for me it takes a lot to put weight on and even more so to build muscle. Anyway after a while of going to the gym, I had put on a surprising amount of muscle and toned up considerably. I applied again. To be told that he wasn't hiring anyone from Manchester as he couldn't afford the travel expense. In the meantime I had seen numerous models appear on his website of slim build, but not in the same category that the put me. I was annoyed. Anyway he told me it was a distance thing now, I accepted this. Then I saw a model, from Manchester, who was the same build as me AND a notoriously bad model. This was the icing on the cake for me. How dare he lie to me

Another example, a lot of times companies and websites just simply ignore me, and value the newer faces or the old reliables...again this is where I don't fit into anything.

I want to know before I go any further, what is wrong with me? Why do so many studios and companies ignore me or are so quick to push me aside?

I am a good model, I am versatile both in the sexual context and in the context that I can do most things or will give it a good try. I mean hell, twinks are really NOT my thing, and I have never been dominant before, but I did it, and I did around 13 shoots for BoyNapped. Was really not my thing, but I still did it, and it must have been good cause they used me and used me consistently.

Something has to give...I just need someone to tell me what I'm doing wrong, what's wrong with me

Friday, 2 September 2011


I have had a funny old day today. I found myself smiling for no reason (or what I thought was no reason) at times and I couldn’t help it, I also felt really emotional and sometimes like I wanted to burst into tears. It was annoying me cause it just felt so random and spontaneous…then it clicked. At some point during the day I had heard a song that I only ever heard while I was in LA and it must have subconsciously triggered a serious of memories of my time there.

I honestly do miss LA and it’s the only place I can say where I have felt comfortable being me, outside of porn and inside of it, and you know what, I liked it. I didn’t have to conform to a stereotype, or be something I am not. I didn’t have to cope with bitchy scene queens, or homophobic straights. I was comfortable being in a healthy, sunny, open environment…and it suited me.

Some of the memories I had were me, @FanForeskin and @Gambit244 (both amazing dear friends) going to Six Flags Magic Mountain for the day, a theme park I have wanted to go to for years, finally getting to ride X (or X2 as it is now known) and Superman.

Going to a big night out at the Hollywood Paladium with @thewillem and @theculp and seeing a performer sing on stage called Zoe Badwi who was amazing! Also the gogo dancers there were brilliant, able to do so much sexual, erotic dancing I loved it!

Shooting scenes with @AdamRussoXXX, @Alternadudes, @FanForeskin and others which was a truly amazing experience for me.

Meeting porn stars and personalities such as @Brent_Everett, @DjChiChiLaRue, Dean Monroe, Steven Daigle, Scottie Brooks, Mason Garret (who I did Cocktails with the Stars with), @Steve_Pena, @FabscoutHoward, Philip Ashton, Cody Cummings, Samuel O’Toole, Marcus Mojo, Jake Lyons…and many more.

Going to the Phoenix Forum in AZ and meeting a ton of industry people, both gay and straight, including @HotHouseXXX, @NextDoorStudios and others. It was an amazing time, and SO hot! Trust me, being British in a place like that gets you a lot of attention haha…and apparently so does having a foreskin.

Going to EatWell most mornings for breakfast/dinner with @FanForeskin, @Gambit244 and @TommyWellsNet…you can’t beat a hobo sandwich!

And the best one of all, my true dear friend and a true gentleman. The guy who put up with me for a month and was extremely hospitable. An amazing guy, @Gambit244

So this is what has been going through my head all day, and to be honest, I love these memories and will cherish them for the rest of my life. I just wish I could go back sooner

Friday, 8 July 2011

Is furious with Orange mobile and this is fucking why!

I owed them £171.95 in March of this year, which I paid in cash a week before I went to America at the Hanley branch. My phone got reconnected and everything was fine, as I had paid up, and phone was working again.

I go away to America in March till April, get back to a letter saying I owe them £ How?! I had paid up before I went away. Anyway I rang them and they said they would sort it for me.

Two months later I get another letter from them saying I owe £290.37...I thought this had been sorted ffs! I rang again, to get the same response.

This morning I opened a letter, and I swear I nearly exploded! They have taken me to a debt collectors for £744.02, now how the fuck in the space of a month can the bill jump from £290.37 up to £744.02? This is completely outrageous and I have sent them a huge ranting email demanding to know what the hell is going on. They have given me till the 13th of this month to pay it all in full. I DO NOT owe that amount of money, this all stemmed from an error caused by one of their fucking employees, they will have to sort their error out, and not demand money from me!

Thursday, 7 July 2011

Rude awakening

After staying up till God knows what time last night painting my bedroom, I finally hit the sack. Nice nights sleep and caught up on the sleep I have been missing.

Now, it's important to know I sleep naked...and if on my own in the apartment I walk round naked to. So remember that bit.

I was rudely awoken this morning to the sound of a brash cockney female accent shouting (rather loudly and repeatedly) "Tell me what I've done! Tell me what I've fucking done!". This annyance prompted me to get up out of bed (nude still) and go to my bedroom window. I live on the top floor, so I looked out the window to see two police vans and about 7 police men stood at the house next-door to mine and a big crowd, this is where I assumed where the ruckus was coming from. I ignored it and went back to bed. The voice carried on shouting, so I decided to go look through my front room window, nothing. Bathroom window, nothing. Bedroom window, nothing...this was starting to do my head in now. I could not find the source of this voice for the life of me...

...then I went to the bathroom for a piss. Stood there pissing and I looked out my bedroom window, above the houses opposite me, to see a figure stood on the roof looking straight through my window. THAT was the source of the voice...this annoying short dumpy lesbian Harry Potter look-a-like!

And I spent about half an hour walking round looking down at the street not thinking to look up, everything on show, flapping in the breeze for this psycho dyke to gawk at... in true British tradition, I leant out the window and shouted "Jump you stupid cow!"

Wednesday, 6 July 2011

Medical mayhem and unsure doctors

Ok, here's the verdict
After my bad stomach pain last night, that went from my ribcage down to my bollocks, I went to the hospital and had various tests and pokings and prod dings. And after all the the doctor STILL didn’t know what was up with me for definite. This is his conclusion:

1 - a cyst on my testicle or the tubing connected to the testicle (which would explain why there was blood in my cum a few days ago)

2 - a problem with my colon, he didn’t say what, just a “problem”


3 - kidney stones

He gave me a few bits of medication to take…so hopefully that will knock whatever it is on the head. On the up side, this morning I am feeling a bit better, still a dull ache in my stomach and bollocks but no where near as bad as what it was last night. Walked into the kitchen and my mum immediately said “fucking hell you look ill! You’re dead pale!” and for someonewhp has been to America and Gran Canaria and come back with a killer tan that’s not a good thing. I managed to eat a bacon sandwich this morning and it stayed down, so far so good.

Fingers crossed ill be ok, but in the mean time…come give me huggles and feed me chocolate *ill Kieron*

Monday, 4 July 2011

The things you never knew've read some of my tweets, you've seen some of my blogs...hell, you may have even watch me have sex. But there are things about me you don't know, some minor and trivial...some big and important. So here goes, gonna open up that little bit more...enjoy

- I am petrified of clowns and spiders.
- I have a huge fear of being alone when I'm older
- Even though I come across as being confident, I am very shy and insecure
- I am a big family man, my family come first
- A huge romantic at heart
- I've done 7 DVD's and over 15 different websites in the UK, USA and Europe
- My day job is bar work and promotions, but I also do my own work on my website and photo manipulation for wedding photos, portfolios and other projects
- I have 3 sisters and 4 brothers
- My favourite colour is Green
- I've had cancer in my leg (bone cancer) when I was 13
- When drunk I am prone to self pitying tweets, bitchy comments and/or loving everyone
- I LOVE the USA and I loved Hollywood when I was there
- I'm a secret geek shhhhh lol
- I WAS Cillian Murphy's body double for a film (regardless what a certain person says)
- I can self-fuck, as was seen on my solo video
- I have worked with my on and off screen partner Steven Prior a total of 4 times
- I have two tattoo's and planning on getting more
- Even though I am quite slim, I do eat a shit load and currently weigh 11st
- I spend my weekends walking round on stilts in silly costumes promoting clubs (yay)
- Aside from porn I do normal modelling as and when the work comes up
- I can fit 33 M&Ms in my foreskin (could have gotten more but the chocolate melted and made my fingers slippy lol)
- I have 4 piercings, getting some more soon as well
- I used to work at Alton Towers theme park in the UK...big theme park geek
- I still get star-struck when meeting my porn Brent Everett and Chi Chi La Rue
- I've only ever had one proper partner, Steven Prior
- When I was younger I was my grandparents carer, as my nan is blind and my grandad is deaf
- I can speak French and very basic Spanish, and I'm learning German
- I write poetry, songs and stories in my spare time, just to write down what I'm feeling
- Aside from being in front of the camera, I have a keen eye as a photographer

Well that's all for now..pretty pointless post, but hey ho...least you know a bit more hehe.